Hi! I’m Barbie Payton, and this is my blog. What’s it about? Well, you’ll just have to read the posts to really find out. Nah, it’s about ME for the most part. It’s about thoughts that roll around in my brain. I had the idea that by writing a blog, it may help me to put things in my life – past, present and future – into some kind of perspective. Unfortunately, my brain never seems to shut down. I seem to have a constant “stream of consciousness” running at all times. I hear or see something in my day to day life, and that sets my mind rolling. I say “rolling” because it’s often like a roller coaster since I can’t disassociate my thoughts from my feelings.
Here’s one thing you need to know about me…I have struggled with Depression most of my life. I tell you this, not to gain your sympathy but to let you know that my blog entries are not going to be upbeat, positive, empowering posts. Rather they will likely be sad, glum, the glass is half-full kinda stuff. It is not my intent to hurt anyone’s feelings either, but when we speak of truths without sugar-coating someone likely will get their feelings hurt, or be offended by something I write. I’m going to share stories about my childhood, and while I don’t think I had a horrible childhood, these stories aren’t the happiest. But they shaped me into the person I am today…the insecure and lonely person behind the smile.